Tiny children in sunbonnets.
Focus on this very moment. It is impossible to control the future or the past so your best bet is to not dwell on it. The issue is shyness. You are starting a new chapter in your life and yet you feel inhibited in expressing yourself fully. You are worried. Concentrate on internal stillness. Do whatever brings you into the present moment. Gail Sheehy once said, “With each passage of human growth we must shed a protective structure (like a hardy crustacean). We are left exposed and vulnerable–but also yeasty and embryonic again, capable of stretching in ways we hadn’t known before.”